HI.
her sister's here, obviously.

I'm currently listening to Mystery by B2ST. Lawa. I'll rate it 4/5, maybe? :P

My sister is too lazy to update her blog or the fact that I barely let her use the internet, but that's just me. So deal with it, yea?

so, buubye. gonna update my ohn blog. :D

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Urgghhhh.. Im so sad today...
Oh sorry,didnt give u a proper hello,so hello...
(where was i?? oh yeah, get to the point..)

I dont know which i should feel rite now;

-happy,excited: -cos Wafiqah just got a FB and i didnt realise it
-cos Aamal made me laugh and we were chatting bout the Teacher's butt or sumthg,HAHA..

-sad,angry,guilty,dissapointed: cos i just "accidentally" coupled with my bestfriend's crush.. :( and that's exactly what i wanted to tell you.... you see... two days ago,two things happened..

-my bestfriend go to another country(shopping or travelling im guessing)
-my best friend's crush proposed me

and like any other girl,i agreed. i was hoping it would atleast make me forgot bout my old boyfriend cos of my 'other-used-to-be-bestfriends-friend' like-like him and im sorta jealous,(i know,not a very good reason to break up with him,plus i got other reasons,bt lets stick to the point..)

Now where was i?Oh yeah..

well,of course i agreed,but without thinking,i said "yes",well *duhh*. It's kinda of.. awkward when he called me "darling" or "sayang"(malay word for "honey") cos im close friends with him,but that doesnt mean im ready for those "mushy-mushy when you're inlove" kind of things.. :s i dont even LIKE him,and one of the reasons i agreed is cos to get "facebooks-eew-flirter" to stop flirting me.

after i agreed, i just remembered that my bestfriend use to tell me that she has a crush on him.. and i was like;"WTF?? OH NO!!" so i gave her a "leave text"-text that says:"can ypou be online?? Reply this A.S.A.-(As Soon As) u read this!! It's bout ****!!" ,two days after that, (which is today) she was online. Let me explain it to you MY way.. the chat sounds like this;

BF(bestfriend,i need to keep her name as a secret):so what bout him?
me:before i tell you anything,do you still like him??
BF:Get to the point
me:well,do you?? (ok,i was annoying her and making her nuts but i NEED to make sure)
BF:no
me:phew.. good,dont be shocked when i tell you this
(me telling her,blablabla:p)
BF:dont be my friend anymore!!
me:you said you dont like him anymore
BF:well,i lied, so what???
BF: :'( (emoticon)
BF: :@ (a FURIOUS emoticon)
me: :( (emoticon)
me: :'(
BF:Go Ahead And CRY!!
(ok,that was insulting,and im not REALLY crying,it's just an expression to be REALLY SORRY)
-BF left the conversation,then i go again chat wid her-

BF:you're a stalker!!!
me:me??
me:stalker??
BF:you already know i liked him!!!
(and blablabla)

what im thinking right now is;
-am i the one who's guilty?? (but she said she doesnt like him anymore!!)
-is it my fault??
-how can i say sorry without her hating me??

and right now,what do i feel today??

-5% cheery smiles
-5% confused
-and 90% SADNESS,TEARS(not really),FURIOUS,ANGRY(same as furious)and i ABSOLUTELY feel like STABBED BY SURPRISE AT THE BCK by your own BEST FRIENDS..

well,anyone who wants to comment or give me a good advice, you're welcomed to do it so..
also to any mean commentors(whatever they call it),you're also welcomed.. (kinda :p)

what i really need is a good advice, should i BREAK UP with him?? Or STAY BEING A COUPLE with him??

i pick the first one,so tommorow in the afternoon, i'll try to break up with him NICELY.. i got a good reason why;cos she's been my best friend since kindergarten to year 6 but i also have a good reason why i shouldn't;cos i wont see my SO-called bestfriends next year(and MAYBE also my boyfriend??)

-FINAL decision; BREAKUP!!

eventhough im breaking up with him,i still (DESPERATELY)NEED(ED) ADVICES about relationships!! :s




Lots Of Love(even if im LOVELESS already),
Thanh

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